A Hustleman Introspection: Enemy Of The Soul

Greetings to the Family out there! As always, I hope all is well with you. Blogger has been fuckin' with me lately so I'm trying to sort that out. Anyway a few quick updates before we get on with today's post.

1) I've been tired as hell lately and haven't been too inspired to write much. I've turned down my hustle a notch because I feel burnout coming. So, instead of going 199% like usual I'm just doing a 100%, feel me? If I get burned out then I won't be doing shit so I'm making efforts to avoid that.

2) Good news from the block! New York has finally hit his lotto number! He said this was his month and sure enough it was. He hit it Tuesday night and is currently out of town in... New York (you saw that coming right?) Needles to say he hit it big time so I'm very happy for him. He even came through to show your Hustleman some love last night before he left out this morning. It wasn't even necessary but that's how New York is. Much love to him and I hope his trip goes well.

3) The current status of my hateration fan club seems to have calmed down a little bit. It's all good, I know they're lurking in the shadows somewhere. I see you sucka ass bitches. You can't hide too long, you have hating to do, so get to work! Anyway moving on...

I wrote the draft of this post in the early morning. You know... one of those nights when your mind is full of thoughts and suddenly a moment of clarity hits you. Well if you all would allow me, here I go again on another introspection which I would like to share.

Here it is: The fear of loss is quite possibly the greatest motivator known to us human beings. When things look their worst, we often times wait to the last minute to make our move. Usually because only then do we realize that we are about to lose something valuable to us. I've lost many things in my life from relationships, to money, to material possessions and more and each and every time I learned something in the process. As I get older I'm beginning to realize that fear is almost always the wrong motivation to move on. When we move in fear we move in error most of the time. We were not made to live out of fear but out of courage.

If you can go back and look at all your accomplishments throughout your life, the ones that probably stand out the most are the ones that took effort, work and the general idea of just "fuck it"! You knew you may not have gotten the results you wanted, but you went ahead. You pushed fear aside and moved forward anyway. Moving despite fear and doubt is power in its truest sense. We all fear many things, but if you let that stop you or determine what you do and how you do it, you are doing nothing but dimming your soul, you're hurting your own growth.

It's been said that human beings move (make decisions) because of 2 main factors. 1) The fear of loss and 2) the desire for gain. But on some levels, even the desire to gain something is fear based. Most of what we desire is to keep us from feeling the pain of losing something. It can be as simple as the desire to be secure. If you desire to feel secure, you actually fear losing what you have, feel me?

It's a sad reality but we have been programmed to respond to fear. We have let it control our lives. And then we wonder why many of us live mundane and stressful lives. We stopped living "our" life along time ago. Now we only live a shadow of a healthy existence. We are living someone elses life. Even the very act of paying a bill is to keep us from losing something which we need. The subtle programming is deep Fam.

Now, realistically, we can never fully live without doing things to keep us from loss. But we can make efforts to do things that will get us closer to what WE want (not what THEY tell us we should want). Fear of loss and the desire for gain are like two boxers, evenly matched and equally strong. The one that wins depends entirely on you and your choices. And isn't that what life boils down to? Making decisions and being prepared to deal with the outcome whatever it may be. Everyone seeks their own results.

One of my mentors (yes I've had alot of them :P) once said this. A criminal who lives fearlessly has a better chance of success and becoming "great" (I use that term loosely) than the "good" person who lives cautiously. It has nothing to do with what's right and wrong, it all has to do with the way they look at life and how far they're willing to go to get what they want. I'm not advocating criminal activity, but I'm trying to make this clear. We do things out of fear almost automatically, but when it comes to doing things that will get us closer to our goals and happiness, we hesitate, procrastinate or just drop it all together. Fear not though Fam, we have all been programmed with this shit and it can all be deprogrammed if we're willing to take the necessary steps.

As always, thanks for reading. These are just some of the thoughts that run through the head of your Hustleman from time to time as I continue to commit myself to stay focused and get what I feel I deserve. Peace and blessings. Take care out there Family!